New Beginnings? ?

New beginnings,  that's what we agreed.  Should I trust my heart again or box it up. ..  We have been down this road before,  need to change our location to the beach where the sun will forever shine on us. New beginnings, that's what he says. ..Hesitate on any move I make but his smile and touch of his hand guide me in faster. Confused,  scared,  nervous, stomach crunching is how this feels. Is it real or a lie?  We always reach a middle then start all over again.  Should this be a new beginning or the end? ?