Sad songs that make you cry : Westlife - Please Stay (Lyrics Video)

Evanescence Everybody's Fool Lyrics

Time. Whether on your side or not, it does not give any breaks. As much as we need time to have that kiss last a little bit longer or waiting for that last minute to run out of class, it keeps on going. Time has not been a very good friend of mine. It robs me of you. Lost loves is always been in my life. Forbidden loves or family passes on.
Time is what we want most, but... what we use worst.  ~Willaim Penn

Light within Moments

The light at the end of the tunnel. That's what everyone says. To tell the truth, its not a light but a break from the tunnel for another one to go through. There is no end. We try and try to better ourselves and to either fail or achieve our goal and yet still feel like we haven't reached it. Its just a little out of our grasp. Do you ever wonder how it would feel to look at the world from someone else perspective? I do, ALL the time. Not because I am unable to think for myself but to just for a moment see what beauty or ugliness they have seen. Guess that is why they call them books huh? To wonder what a person is actually capable of or unable to handle. At that moment when they realize what is going to happen or the decision they finally
made.

The light at the end of the tunnel, sometimes seems so far away or the reverse, its there but to stay at the end, what happens? Has anyone ever been at the end and are fully happy to share their experience? Our parents or grandparents say life was more simple when they were young. Sometimes, if you look closely, you find those little moments of happiness they share.  Like the way they hold hands or a steal of a glance. Just watching someone sitting at the park and observing. Little moments like that have me wondering what is out there that I miss everyday. I am not artist, not by a long shot. But I do try to open that part of my mind to appreciate the art of everything.

Those are the times I wish I am able to fully understand. Just like R. Brault once said "Enjoy the little things in life, for one day you'll look back and realize they were big things".

So will I ever get my answer? I hope so.

Blue

Hey there, was unable to really say what was on my mind earlier. To tell the truth I was relieved when I found out the news. However, there was a small part that was also disappointed. Never gave it thought until that moment. As much as I was terrified; to have a piece of the one thing I cant have would have been enough. Scary huh? Luckily, I am not looking for that type of drama. I think the reason he came into my life was to show me I am able to love and appreciate someone. " My great hope is to laugh as much as I cry; to get my work done and try to love somebody and have the courage to accept the love in return" (Maya Angelou). Thankfully for Marc and him, I understand the difference. There is no doubt about the things I say and do are for this person, I love him with ALL of my heart. As for what he feels, I just hope its the same from him. Future together or not.

You would think I would have learned about love the first time. Why do I have to learn the hard way EVERY TIME? Falling in love with a married man is always a stupid decision. I ALREADY know this! Please stop and think before you critize me. Everyone has done at least something they are not proud of if you haven't, then you have either take the safe road or God knows why you have not Lived a little. I am the cliche, fall in love with a married man and get hurt.  "Love is like a virus. It can happen to anybody at any time." (Maya Angelou) 

Well this relationship has lasted for almost 4years now. Feelings are there for me.(Isn't that always the case?) He tells me he loves me, has kept every promise but wont leave her. Says hes staying until his 10yr old turns 18. Do people still stay because of the kids? More than half the time the answer is "No". Which means the obvious, hes not in love with me. Most women would tell me "Then why stay?" That is a really good question, Maybe because, it is already comfortable and its better than being lonely. So for now I will be miserable every time he leaves, until I actually end it. When will this happen? Very soon. Will I hurt? Yes I will.

I believe this is my karma for treating men like meat. Yes I was a man eater. So now that I want something real, I will have to through hell and back to actually find that person to grow old with. Is that too much to ask? Dating is not fun and very time consuming.  No one meets someone on the street anymore. You have all these dating sites giving you so many options. Its too much work and a distraction speaking with someone while having a cup of coffee, yet thinking who is leaving you messages on your profile. Half of the people I speak to tell me you cant look for love it will find you. While the other half tell me I have to go and find love, it doesn't come to you. So for now, maybe that is a sign to take some time off from the dating world for a little while?

This blog is my stepping stone for change. Hope it helps.