8.29.2016

Where have all the fairy tales gone?







Every woman's dream is to have the love of her life get down on one knee and ask that question "Will you make me the luckiest guy in the world and marry me?" Not every woman always has the fairy tale proposal or relationship... You just look at the guy you love and think... "why cant you just read my mind and know that every woman wants to be swept off her feet?,dummy" So we woman settle for who he is cause lets face it women, we are not perfect neither.

Yes, that is a hard pill to swallow isn't it? You just hope that what you have will actually last and he really means what he says. 

There are several reasons why men get married;
The one every woman kinda hopes for... 
He is all crazy in love with you, some call it blind love.

He has been with you for so long that he feels he has to give in 
example "College Sweethearts"

Then there are the ones that fake it, cause shes a good girl and she's paid her dues, doesn't know I'm keeping a mistress around anyway

You get knocked up and he feels trap and has to be stuck with you
The last one is he has run out of excuses and you force him to marry you

Am I being bitter or negative? No, just realistic.

Fairy tales... how I wish I could believe in them again.
There once was a time for only a minute. I did believe in flying on cloud nine, dancing on sunshine cause he made me so happy, then reality slapped me, HARD. 
Found out he screwed me over and didn't know how to love, cause he cannot love himself. 

Then somehow, one day my life changed and now I'm engaged.
Great thing is I found out I was still able to love, bad thing is I no longer believe in fairy tales, that was taken away from me a while ago. Ladies, I think the reason is because men do not want use to believe in them. Sets the bar pretty high, 
don't you think? Too much work for them. Meaning in the end, not worth all the work.

Not really sure what my point is to all of this....
Guess just trying to figure myself out again. What lead me to this path?
Do we settle for no fairy tale or just take life as it is??


1.27.2016

"All Cried Out"

"All Cried Out"
(duet with 112)


[Allure]
All alone on a Sunday morning
Outside I see the rain is falling, whoa oh..
Inside I'm slowly dying
But the rain will hide my crying, crying, crying
And you
Don't you know my tears will burn the pillow
Set this place on fire
'Cause I'm tired of your lies
All I needed was a simple "Hello"
But the traffic was so noisy that you could not hear me cry

(I) I gave you my love in vain
My body never knew such pleasure,
My heart never knew such pain
And you, you leave me so confused...
Now I'm all cried out, over you

[112]
Oooo
I'm over you, oh yeah you
Never wanted to see things your way
Had to go astray
Oh why was I such a fool, baby (Why was I such a fool)
Oh yeah
Now I see that the grass is greener
Is it too late for me to find my way home,
How could I be so wrong?

[Allure]
Leaving me all alone
Don't you know my tears will cause an inferno
(tears will cause an inferno baby)
Romance often fades
Why should I take the blame?
You were the one who left me neglected (I'm so sorry baby)
Apology not accepted
Add me to the broken hearts you've collected

(I) I gave you all of me
How was I to know
You were awaken so easily
(I) I don't know what to do
Now I'm all cried out (all cried out) over you
(I) I gave you my love in vain
My body never knew such pleasure
My heart never knew such pain
You (left me so confused)
Now I'm all cried out (All cried out)
Now I'm all cried out
Over you

[112]
Please forgive me baby, oh
Please forgive

1.25.2016

Emotionally Drained

Emotionally involved with you is driving me mad. One minute you have me craving your touch, the next doubting myself and feelings.

Trust is at the very minimum, knowing you still have secrets. Secrets will kill what's left of us. You play a part so well I no longer seem to want to care. Play the rules your way and see where it goes. You wouldn't be able to handle the truth.
Which will destroy us both.

Tired of lies!
Tired of leaving me in the dark. Tired of being a fool for a love that doesn't respect me any longer.

Emotional, you have me so emotionally drained. Please stop.