So much on my mind and cannot word it correctly. Want to say so much but there are always consequences. How did I become so lost within myself? No longer the charming, fun, outgoing person I used to be. Now just in the background to enjoy everyone else. Do I want all the spot light again? Maybe not, just want to be able to do what I want to feel alive again. What is missing? Couldn't even tell you right now.
Lost, lost within myself.
Part of me just wants to start fresh somewhere else. Life doesn't work that way. Family, old loved one ALWAYS find their way back into your life somehow. So I have to wait until the right time to move away from everyone.....time is not a good friend
So much I want to say but someone feelings will somehow get hurt; Mine, loved ones, family. There is no way out. Feeling trapped in this situation and do not know how to get myself out. Lost, lost within myself
Mind loves to play tricks on me. Looking at myself from the outside and dislike what I see. Someone lost, boring, trapped in her thoughts. Cannot see a way out. Suffocating is how I feel daily. No one to help me, no one really understands ME. They have no idea what goes through my head. My demons are winning and I am letting them.
Lost, lost within myself
Run, run away and don't look back. Coward, that is what I am. To actually do something about the torture I am experiencing. No one can see me. No one will ever see me. Some think they know me and I let them believe it. Better than showing my true demons and dark corners of my twisted mind. Lost, lost within myself
One day hope to find the silver lining again. It has been gone for such a long time. The darkness has slipped in and stayed, like a blanket to suffocate you slowly. Wanting to keep me in my twisted thoughts. A shell of a person that use to be looking for life in the next adventure. Cannot find my way. Lost, lost within myself.
Will I ever find my way out again??
